Thursday, October 20, 2005

Another night arrives

Well, we both got naps in this afternoon...however, I'm sitting here listening to her screaming right now. 10 min so far. Bedtime has rarely been a battle but tonight she fell asleep after I sang a few times and I put her down, then I went to pick the blanket up and put it over her, not realizing that part of it was under her and I woke her up by pulling on it....I tried reading and singing and nursing....everything...she falls asleep nursing and screams as soon as I pick her up so I just decided I had to let her cry...the hardest part...my poor 11 year old is next door to her and has school tomorrow. It's already late. My hubby and I both have started to come down with this cold, he took Nyquil and is passed out and I'm here listening to her scream. She quiets down a bit and then starts back up....

I really need divine intervention on this one...I'll take those other nights, before she got sick, over this anyday.

She's quiet....like 30 seconds now...oh Lord please......I really think this is God "guiding" me to becoming more consitant in my life....He's using this as an illustration for the importance of consistancy and the consequences of not being consistant. I've said it before, it's just never been part of how I do things...I'll start something and then stop after a few days....

She's still quiet....2 min or so (10:07)

Her normal bedtime is 830...today our naps ended around 530 so it was hard for her to go to bed at 830...I tried at 930 and that's when this last fiasco began....I believe it's ended now...shhhh...

Anyway, consistancy...very important for me and truly as I was writing this blog it came to me that this is what God is trying to teach me. I've been trying not to be angry with God and instead look for what His will and purpose is. I don't ever remember being angry at God, I mean, who am I to be angry with the Creator of all mankind? But I began having those feelings because I just couldn't see what His point was in all of this....so I prayed and begged and prayed and begged...Now I feel alright...well, still sicky, BUT spiritually, alright...

TOMORROW begins my life of consistancy....oh yeah, I thought it was funny how stupid ole' satan read my blog yesterday and saw that I was planning on having a good day today so he tried to make it bad...well, on the outside to many it may not have looked like the best day but looking back on the last 24 hours, my daughter and I have had some fun times being awake together so much....and I'm learning a lesson SO, ha ha ha satan....

Ok, I'm exhausted as you can tell by what I just wrote, I'm going to sleep.

Goodnight and God Bless You.....(shhhhhhhhhhh, still quiet, Thank You Jesus!)

1 comment:

maya said...

hi mom i like this it is cool i like it yay anna is asleep.



maya your daughter